I am thankful for:
1. having a healthy husband and healthy children. Parker's hospital stay really made me think about how lucky we are to have healthy children. We were soooo lucky that Parker only needed 2 weeks of antibiotics - there were WAAAY sicker babies in the NICU. I can't even imagine how heartbreaking it must be to have a sick child. The guilt, the agony, and the helplessness must be awful. I used to worry a lot about Bill's health. He is the oldest living male in his family. Seriously. Heart disease. So I used to worry about it a lot - but every time I mention it to him, he gently reminds me that he is in AWESOME shape. He just ran a marathon (that's 26.2 miles) in UNDER 3 hours! This is the main reason why I don't get completely put off by the time and money he spends on running.
2. our beautiful house. We picked the lot in the neighborhood, we picked the floor plan - we picked everything in this house yet when we moved in it didn't feel like home yet. 15 months later it definately feels like home. It's a little dusty, and the floor seems like it always needs to be vacuumed/dust mopped, there are kid and baby toys EVERYWHERE but it is these things that make it feel the most like home. The house as lost that new construction smell, I have the furniture arranged how I like it, and it's cozy and warm. Everything a house with 2 little boys should be!
3. Bill SHAVED. He's really supersticious. And 99% of his supersticions revolve around college football, namely the Oklahoma Sooners. He has to be wearing the jersey, the hat, sitting on the couch beer in hand with me next to him (asleep!) and Stewart on the otherside, Parker in his lap. Any little variance will somehow cause the team to lose. So as it got closer to the Philadelphia marathon, he quit shaving and eventually trimmed it up Prefontaine style. I thought he looked ridiculous. He did look ridiculous. And now, because he set a new personal best he will probably grow it out before every single race. DRAT. Initially, I wanted him to shave it off as soon as we got back to the hotel after walking back from the finish but I forgot the damn razor. But he did shave it off soon after we got home.
4. I have a great job. Quitting Sprint without having another job lines up was VERY VERY stressful for me. I get so many people that say I should just stay home with the kids - and I kinda find it offensive. Most of the people that say that are merely acquaintences and I don't feel they know me well enough to make that statement. But I look past the woman=stay at home mom streotype because I recognized a long time ago that I enjoy working. I HATE having to ask for money. I like having my own income. If I want to buy something silly, I don't feel guilty about spending Bill's money because I'm not spending his. But also I don't have the patience. I know I am a better mother because I work. I have had a job since the summer I turned 15. I have ALWAYS had a job. This summer was the longest I have been out of work since my first job. But my point is that I have a great job. It takes some time to get used to a new boss, a new company, and a new position but I do feel like I fit in well with the team and the company and I enjoy it. I do get frustrated easily but it's mostly because I like to be busy all the time and when I'm not my mind wanders and I get bored. Kathy feels lucky to have found me and I definately feel lucky that they hired me.
5. I have AWESOME friends. I don't have many. The people I count as true friend i could count on one hand. I would do anything for them and I know they would do anything for me. Sadly, other than Bill, I have no friends in the tri-state area. I am thankful that Holly is back on the east coast. Carla is unfortunately in Chicago. Jason finally got hired as a police officer in the Village in Oklahoma City - he and I have IM'd every work day since we met at the AOL callcenter - that's 10 years ago. We've chatted about my 4 moves, getting married, multiple vacations, having kids and about his engagement, wedding, his job with his father in law that was constantly frustrating, his dreams to be a cop like his father. And now that he's a cop we don't chat as much. He'll pop on AIM and we catch up, but I miss it. I tend to make friends for life. It took me YEARS to get over Melissa - and it still makes me very sad and I'll never understand and maybe that's why I'm much more cautious. Bill will always be my best friend but i still need my girlfriends and I miss being able to go out with them or just see them.
6. being back in school. As much as I don't want to do it and it is such a drag, it will be nice to FINALLY get a 4-yr degree in SOMETHING. I am a smart girl but I feel like people judge you by your resume and I need this degree to be just as good (qualified?) as everyone else - even though I know I'm better than most! Old high school classmates have caught up with me on Facebook and I feel like I haven't done anything with my life and it's embarassing. Holly is in med school, Daniel is out flying jets for the air foce (his dream since forever ago), another classmate is an assistant DA in Wichita, and another is on freakin TV - I just saw her in Samantha Who. Holly is very good to remind me that I have an excellent marriage with a good man that loves me and that I have a beautiful family and great kids - i just feel like I'm missing something. i didn't grow up saying I wanted to be an administrative assistant - I wanted to be an epidemiologist and work for the CDC and wear the yellow suits and go to hot zones and cure diseases. I think I might be having a mid-life crisis. I'm not quite sure what a mid-life crisis is for a woman - but for me, it's realzing that I will be 30 in May and I haven't really accomplished much of anything.
7. the Disney Trip we took with my parents. It's cheesy - but I have always wanted to take a big family reunion style trip to Disney World. it will probably never happen with all of my siblings and their kids - but this was probably better. It was our last trip with Stewart alone, it was our first big trip to take with my parents, Bill and Stewart's first trip to Disney World period. We had such a great time, I wish we could do it every year. Stewart still talks about how much fun he had - and we went in January!!! I will say that a week at Disney while 5.5 months pregnant is no picnic. For starters, everything fun you remember doing as a kid, you can't do it. you can stand in line and then sit around and wait for them to get out of rides. and it's a lot of walking. It's a Small World, Pirates of the Caribbean, and the Buzz Lightyear shooting ride are the most exciting rides you can do. But January was a great time to go, the weather was great and it wasn't too crowded. Plus - for all you runners out there - the Disney Marathon and half marathon is in january. (We take a lot of trips around races for Bill.)
8. my 5 minute commute to work. I went from driving 50 miles each way to driving about 2.5 miles each way. Of course, I do drop the kids off at day care and pick them up - which makes it about 10 miles each way but that is soooooo much better than driving from Charles Town, WV to Reston, VA.
9. I LOVE that Stewart is such a great big brother. I can tell he has moments where he feels a little sad that he isn't getting as much attention as he used to - but he has loved his brother from the frist sign of the bump in my tummy. He is so living and caring and he really is a huge help. Parker watches him and just wants to be doing everything Stewart does. It's very cute.
10. just to have another great year. I can't believe it's practially December. We have done a lot this year AND WE HAD A BABY! I am very thankful to have another year to spend with Bill and Stewart, to introduce Parker to the family, to have awesome parents that dropped everything to drive to WV from OK to help me cope with Parker being sick (and to make Stewart still feel like he is a very important little boy.) I have created special fun memories with my friends. We have turned this house into our home. I have a good job where I actually feel respected and can respect my boss and the other management (until recently, I didn't understand the value of having a GOOD boss.) I am constantly learing something new about being a parent, a wife, a person and I gain appreciation for the things my parents told me that i ignored when i was younger. I am very lucky to be HERE with this family.
All of this does make me feel a little better about the ridiculous mid-life crisis I am having.